Tender Mercies of my sweet life

Dear Mom,

My heart is full. Oh my! I'm laying on my bed, on my tummy. It's 9:23am, a Saturday morning. The only difference lies in the fact that today we have reached our 3 month milestone. Michael is sleeping still. He is so precious when he sleeps. Sometimes I think he is much like Iolakona and Ikaika, they are precious all the time, but there is a magic when they sleep. Ha ha Yes there is magic when Michael is asleep and all I can do is watch him and think "I'm a lucky girl". 3 months with this beautiful man is the greatest blessing of my life this far.

Yesterday I received other blessings. This semester has proven to be my hardest. I can't seem to get a grasp on anything. I feel that my 9 simple credits are slipping through my fingers and I'm losing it. Sometimes, when I'm home alone I wonder why my life is in shambles. I think I have done all I can do. I am trying so hard to be the best me and sometimes the best that is expected of me. It pulls me thin most times and I feel that I'm playing a personal game of "Keeping up with the Joneses". But yesterday I went to meet my professor. My professor who I felt was sick of me slacking off in his class and just barely making it, who wanted me out. But this professor surprised me. Instead of a lecture of my need to be better, he returned my last exam and said "Good Job. You did pretty good on this last one" and then he sat me down and talked about Differential equations, explaining (probably for the second time) everything he taught on the chapter and what he thought would be important for me to study. It was amazing, because right at that moment I felt not only the love of my teacher, but the love of my Heavenly Father who answered a prayer that I had never verbalized. He answered the soft and scared pleas that only a father can hear. It's that feeling when someone gives you something you need at that exact moment of time even when you never said anything about needed it. It's a tender mercy.

These tender mercies make my life sweet. Like waking up early just to watch Michael sleep and fall in love with him all over again. Like feeling the love of my Heavenly Father from good people who listen to the Spirit.

Life is sweet!!