WORDless Wednesday

Sweet Sorrows

LIFE!!!!!
Love Is For Everyone

Day 22-30 was a blur. But I will admit that it was a happy, positive blur. Why? I have renewed my love for visiting teaching. I just love it! I visited my sisters this week and found out that our numbers are actually pretty good this month. YAY! That means that almost every sister is being cared for.

With that news I move onto other things, ummm....this is weird to post online, but I have seen so many people sharing their stories that I think it's safe to share just a glimpse of another story.

Michael and I have been married for 1year and 1 month today. Such a great accomplishment! It has been a great journey and we are so happy with our ups and downs. Michael has been such a wonderful husband. Like they say "Choose your love and love your choice". I guess it's true that things get better over time. His picture above was taken while we were still dating. He's so dang hot, I remembered why I married him..ha ha ha Love you hun!

In these years we have made decisions to start our family. But those plans are on hold now. We have been trying since August 2012 with no positive results. It's easy to be doubtful and get down on myself...but today I realize that I need to figure out if there is anything wrong with me. Well, more if there is anything I can do to help things along. So, I made my first call to an OB/GYN today. Scary, but I think I want to know; I want to know what's wrong. The nurse who referred me asked me if I had been diagnosed with PCOS before. I said no. Then I came home and googled and youtubed and did EVERYTHING to find out what I could about it. I know a couple of friends who have it and are working on starting their families. PCOS sounds closely related to your insulin levels (sugar in your blood), which is related to your diet and the amount of sugars you take in. All this sugar was making me so sweet, but little did I know that it would bring some sorrow with it. I thought to myself when I was doing all this research "I need to make this change for my babies" Oh my, to think that my selfishness has resulted in this.

Jsut the other day, i was speaking with a friend and she said something along these lines...You know sometimes you just need to go to the edge; to the points where you start to wonder about everything good you've done in your life, the gospel, everything; and you think "Why is this happening to me?"...I am learning that usually when you hit those points in life Heavenly Father is so eager to show you just how important you are to Him and he reminds you of your eternal perspective. Oh what sweet sorrows.

So the first order of the day is to 1) Plan and follow a sugar free diet. Then 2) Incorporate exercise and finally 3) find a way to make this plan permanent.

Love, Peace and Harmony,

Mabel